On Love, Confusion & The Dark Knight of the Soul, by Qu'o
"The choice of which path to follow is an extremely central part of what you as a soul hoped that you would successfully grapple with in this incarnation.
Every human condition contains a lesson in love that can be taken either positively or negatively. Indeed, it is sometimes difficult to find the love that is within that moment. This is often very subtle work and, meanwhile, very unsubtle confusion tends to reign.
You see, each of you came into incarnation with a clear set of lessons to learn and service to offer.
You laid down relationships and situations that would produce the most catalyst and would offer you the most efficient possible opportunities to increase your polarity and to share your gifts.
You also provided yourself with a personality shell. And within that personality shell you offered to yourself the amount of intelligence that you thought would be helpful in order for you to do those things which you came to do.
Consequently, the human situation is a soul who does not remember its lessons, does not know what service it came to offer, and is placed in what will continue to be until the incarnation is through: a constant cyclical sea of confusion.
The personality shell, you see, has one aspect that can be very difficult to control. That aspect is the mind.
The emotions of self have a truth to them that does not depend upon the veil of forgetting. The feelings that each seeker has are trustable to a far greater extent than that which the mind puts out in the way of thoughts.
The intellectual mind is a portion of the personality shell and is designed to solve problems; to look at a situation and make a choice. When dealing with the physical creation, this mind works well. However, this is the density of the soul’s awakening to an awareness of itself.
There comes that moment within the incarnational experience when the seeker realizes that something has changed. This is the experience of awakening to the metaphysical nature of the self.
It is a dislocating experience because it means that you are now in a completely different creation.... the metaphysical universe.
In the physical universe, the goals tend to be achievements, things that can be done. In the metaphysical universe, the issues have to do with essence and being. In this universe, it is thoughts that are the deeds. It is intention and desire that are the actions.
As a metaphysical entity, a citizen of eternity and infinity, you then turn and look back at the human situation, not with an idea to solve the situation, but with the idea to hone your intentions, your desires, and your vibration.
Priorities for a metaphysical seeker are completely switched from the priorities of the physical person. And this is very confusing. Naturally, the soul tends to move back and forth between the two worlds and attempts to harmonize physical agendas and metaphysical agendas.
And may we say that both agendas are valuable and are valuable equally, for you did not come into this density of choice to be aloof, wise and in control. You came into this experience so that you might surprise yourself and the infinite Creator... to give yourself new catalysts to chew over and make into deep experiences.
In many, many cases the lessons of love do not involve the great boon of companionship; the catalyst comes to one who must deal with it seemingly by oneself. And there is a tremendous loneliness and isolation that is felt by those who are adrift in the sea of confusion for one reason or another.
Yet, we say to you that when you are at your lowest point, when hope seems to be the dimmest, then is the creative moment, the moment of unlimited possibility.
Each of you has times of rooting darkness, times when it seems truly the Dark Night of the Soul. And it is in such situations that the intellectual mind is finally brought to a standstill, is finally defeated, and knows that it cannot solve spiritual problems. And when that occurs the way of working moves from the head to the heart.
Do not feel that you are less than an excellent seeker if you spend much time within your intellectual mind. You gave yourself a powerful intellectual mind in order to help with the confusion.
But note the dark time when finally you listen to your heart and write it down as a red letter day, for when you come into your heart, and let your heart do your thinking, the intuitions that can arise can truly seem to simplify and harmonize the experience of being in the dark and being confused.
When all human habitation fails to comfort, there is that tabernacle within the heart to which you may go in meditation, in contemplation, in prayer.
In a moment of remembrance you may suddenly be in the light, bursting with joy and peace, and aware that things will rise, things will occur, and things will pass away... you will be just fine in weal or woe, in life or death, moving through all of the interesting confusions and conundrums of everyday life.
When you live in the heart you shall still be confused, but you shall not begrudge that confusion so deeply. Nor shall you find yourself in the state of irritation for as long a time.
The heart, in its intuitive way, has a kindness, a gentleness when the mind would cut with its sharp edges."
— Q'uo
